Sacredness Step: Decide you deserve more

When we’re stuck in a rut, or perhaps worse, a path of destruction, it’s understandable that our unconscious mind has not afforded us any grace. For whatever reason, you think you deserve less, so continue to create a life that is not reflective of your true potential.

It’s easy to not worship yourself. We’ve grown up with mixed messages about what success, worthiness and perfection means. We’ve all had our failings and our down moments. We’ve not been taught that this is all part of grace, of learning and growth. So instead of embracing it, we continually beat ourselves up and look to others as a benchmark to where we should be.

The game of of never being enough continues.

I suffered from low self-esteem and insecurity from a very young age. I don’t know why I disliked myself so much, but I did, and I was convinced everyone else did too, including God.

Through the travel years of my twenties, I was having so much fun that I buried those feelings of worthlessness and life cruised on by. I travelled the world with the man I loved. How could you not be happy? Financially we were doing okay. We’d made smart investments and while did not live a lavish lifestyle, it was one that was comfortable and involved doing what we loved.

When we decided to jump into an entrepreneurial world those feelings of not being good enough came bursting back. My subconscious searched for ways to sabotage what we were doing because deep down I knew I didn’t deserve to step up and out into the light and into my dreams.

Why would it happen to me? Who did I think I was to want this? I’m just not good enough, smart enough, funny enough, pretty enough, worthy enough.

Fear, frustration, angst, and desperation surrounded me.

All I wanted was to create my dream life of travel and help others to do it, but I could not get past my self and the feelings that some higher power would never help me because I was lower than a snake’s belly. I didn’t understand this at the time; I thought it was the fault of everyone and everything around me.

The desire in me for change, sparked a internal search for meaning. Through that digging, I began to understand the fear and feelings that lay under that blame. I did not think I was worthy or good enough.

Ouch. How long had I been holding onto this and why? This probably doesn’t really matter much, what matters is flicking the switch to believing you were born just as perfect as you are now.

What are you carrying around under your fears and frustrations?

When you uncover that monster, you can finally make some changes.

It took a financial devastation of nearly half a million dollars to wake me up. My pain was intense and my soul ached. It was desperately trying to tell me through its yearning that there was something more for me, if I just believed that I deserved more.

I couldn’t let what I had created be the reality of my life forever.

I didn’t know how I was going to turn things around, but my soul clearly spoke that I had to and it was up to me to do it.

I simply decided that I would believe I deserved it.

That decision did not reflect an instantaneous belief and all channels suddenly opened for things to happen. It’s been a long journey since then, but that decision opened up a small space for me to step into.

By saying that I would step forth into this world my soul ached for, I said I would learn how to believe in my own self-worth and take the necessary steps to find what my soul was yearning for me to do.

When you make step into your sacredness in this way, you call upon the power of the Universe to support you. You’re now working towards something far greater and more important than the self-pity parties you like to constantly rerun in your psyche. I was so damn good at this! ( I still can be, in fact I championed one the other night- self-belief is a mountain you never stop climbing)

Yes. You deserve it. You might not think you do. You might not realize you are playing that song in your own life. But, if you are living a life you don’t love, then I’m sure self-doubt is the track you keep playing.

What’s burning up for you? What’s your soul’s yearning? Connect with it and make the decision that you deserve to live it. You are that much closer now to living a life you truly love.

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  • Kathy Kruger

    I needed your message today and am glad you keep reinforcing this point about needing to believe we deserve a good life. Back from holidays and feeling at a crossroads, but trying to believe I deserve a bright future/


    • Caz Makepeace

      I’m so glad it could help you Kathy. You do deserve a good life. Keep believing it


  • Teresa @TTsTrippin

    Great perspective and much needed read. I think we all feel “less than worthy” of success in our lives. Its sad to think it took me till I hit the halftime mark of mine (just turned 50) to realize those dreams I have are MEANT FOR LIVING! I believe that when you have a passion and know without a doubt that you have gift for sharing this passion, NOT to do it is simply quitting on life. My passion for people and places (Travel is literally in my blood) has brought me to my purpose. THANK YOU for sharing your life with us to help keep us on the right road and off the main “drag” with everyone else. BIG Blessings to You in 2014 as you and your family continue to Bless others 🙂


    • Caz Makepeace

      Big blessings to you too Teresa. It’s never too late! Go out and live that passion


  • Anna Langer

    YES. I love this post Caz! I am graduating in May and am finding it hard to have confidence in living my life the way I want once I finish school, not how everyone else does. I completely agree that you just have to take every negative thought and turn it into somethings positive, just believe in yourself.


    • Caz Makepeace

      It’s all about belief. If you get in control of that part, the rest will flow quite effortlessly


  • Karen Morley

    What a wonderful story Caz. We all have that sad little voice that makes us doubt ourselves, but to rise above that naughty voice and to believe in yourself and your dreams is something I think that we all strive to do!

    I am slowly starting to do the same for myself and my dreams and I feel excited by all those possibilities that are out there waiting for me!

    Thanks for sharing xxx


    • Caz Makepeace

      Thanks Karen! It’s definitely what you deserve so keep going for it


  • Anassiri

    I am so happy i found your site. I am too have the travel dream. I can feel it in my heart, in my body, my soul longs for new places, new people, new adventures! I have never done it, first because of money and not believing in myself, then I got married got pregnant and I have 3 little ones. Now it’s the thinking that how am I going to travel with little ones? But after seeing your blog and travel advise I know it can be possible, and I know how beneficial it will be for them too. I AM ready to walk into the direction of my dreams, to live with passion, and to sleep under the starts!


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