I’m being far more diligent and stricter second time around when it comes to putting the baby to sleep.
I’m making sure I teach Savannah how to sleep on her own from the get go.
It is working.
I’ve just put her down in her cot, after a feed. She was sleepy, but still awake.
She lay there looking around, and trying to root on her fingers.
I knew she was not hungry as she just had a big feed. She was beginning to use my boobie as a sleeping crutch. I can’t go down that road again.
I felt my heart pull as I started to move slowly out the room.
“But look at her Caroline. She’s so little. She must be so afraid, lying there on her own trying to go to sleep. She’s been safe in your warm tummy for so long always connected to her. You can’t leave her. Pick her up.”
And so the mind battle begins. Torn between knowing what lies in the future and how to make that easier by getting it right now and with an overwhelming love for my child that makes me just want to cuddle her and rock her to sleep and keep her by my side.
If I could, I’d never put her down.
But, my job is to teach and guide her and with that comes learning how to sleep. You’d think they’d coming out knowing, but they don’t.
I just have to remind myself what happens a few months down the track when they don’t know how to get themselves asleep.
Hours of rocking.
Patting on back.
Sleep Rescue strategies that don’t work, all in an effort to help restore some of your sanity.
Waking up every hour for a feed, not because they are hungry, but because they are awake and don’t know how to get back to sleep.
I can’t walk that road again. I know how much easier life will be for me, if I just forego the pleasure I receive in having her lay sleeping in my arms. Not every time, just mostly.
Instead, I’ll just make sure I pay more attention to the moments when I can cuddle her and not worry that I may be setting her up for struggles later on.
I’ll make my time more quality.
Give her that one extra squeeze before I do put her down, and relish in the pride and joy I feel when I see how clever she is in putting herself to sleep.
It will mean Mummy will be less stressed and tired in a few weeks time, and that will be far more valuable to Savannah then just having a cuddly, happy mummy for the first few glowy weeks.
How did you cope with putting your baby to sleep?