This question has me a pondering lately.
Should I stop writing on Mojito Mother or at least severely cut back?
With my heavy work load I can no longer cope with the attention she desires.
It has been a wicked couple of months with my girls. I really am parent clueless lately and I battle every day with the feelings of not doing it right, and somehow damaging my girls.
Savannah is killing me! She’s so freakin adorable and makes me laugh so hard, but come midday and 7pm she has me shaking in my boots with dread. Getting her to sleep is (roughly) a 1-2 hour nightmare. I’m now back to rocking my baby to sleep. WHATEVER works. Shall be paying for it for years to come no doubt.
And child care is not doing much else other than giving Savannah truck loads of germs. She rarely even gets to go for her one day a week anymore. Poor bubby, I think we might have to pull her out.
My strength is about whacked. On top of that is ongoing health issues for me, and general dissatisfaction with certain aspects of my life. I’ve been going through huge upheavals, but holding on to the fact that it is me clearing up the shit and making room for the amazing! It’s slowly getting better.
But enough about that.
I love writing in this space. I don’t feel I do much and mostly I don’t know what I am doing or if it matters or makes a difference.
Every time I decide I am going to quit as I can’t manage it, I receive a message from a reader saying how this site makes a difference.
It’s hard to quit when you know people’s lives are uplifted by your words (no matter how strange you might think this is.)
I feel a lot of what I do here is quite wishy washy and I just can’t seem to focus on one area or what it is I really need to do. I am hoping Marie Forleo’s B-School will help.
For now my business focus has to be y travel blog. This is my baby and greatest love, the place I feel I can make the most difference.
It is growing rapidly at the moment and I need to jump on that momentum to do more. I’m annoyed at myself for not getting my own products created and missing far too many boats. Three years without putting out my own product is really bad and shows how little I think of my own value and how fearful I am.
I am annoyed at a lot of things lately which I am trying hard to sort out and move back to my space of happiness and gratitude.
I am longing for the day when we have enough income coming in to hire a team to release a lot of the burden so I can be free to do what I want on this space… when I figure out what that is.
I ain’t letting Mojito Mother go. I’m going to sit on her for awhile until I work out what to do. I like to sit on my problems and indecision. I trust that the Universe will deliver me the right answer when it is ready.
I’ve been sitting on my new tag line and look for this site for months. Just last week, while in the shower it came to me, and it is perfect. A few days later my designer presented me with my new looking Mojito Mother site. It’s HOT.
It has inspired me to stick with it and allow it to be reborn with a new energy and focus. Slowly the new way is unravelling itself to me.
For now, I will be posting here at least once or twice a week. I don’t think I can do any more than that at the moment. I’ll keep you posted. I hope you’ll hang out with me still and embrace the new look and focus when she arrives…
at the time she is meant to.
For now enjoy the magic of the Universe!