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\"Problogger<\/a>

Fun times<\/p><\/div>\n

I walked out of the Problogger conference<\/strong> <\/a>with a spring in my step and a notebook full of ideas and actionable items.<\/p>\n

Two days later I am sitting in my office with a confused head, the notebook is closed and I am slightly slumped.<\/p>\n

I’m almost feeling like I could throw in the towel on blogging for good.<\/p>\n

All of a sudden I’m just feeling sick of it.<\/p>\n

The endless amounts of work, the endless amounts of ideas that don’t get finished, and the endless amount of worry that goes into thinking about traffic numbers and stats.<\/p>\n

I’ve suddenly gone into panic mode.<\/p>\n

Plummeted from the heights of inspiration and confidence to feeling so insignificant and incapable.<\/p>\n

I just feel like I can\u2019t do it and that everyone else around me is doing such a better job.<\/p>\n

And then I get even more upset because I know how much time I am wasting feeling like this. It’s Monday, the one day of the week where the girls are with my mum so I can work!!<\/p>\n

I’m using what I know about life and success to pull me through.<\/p>\n

Here’s what I think are some possible causes of my funk<\/p>\n

1. I’m tired<\/h2>\n

Not only did my brain take on soo much quality information, I also partied a little too hard with friends in Chinatown on Saturday night after the final day. Drinking copious amounts of German stein will not help your energy levels. Note to self: You created that one, suck it up and do better next time.<\/p>\n

I so wanted to get up at 5 this morning, but I could not drag myself out of bed. The screaming baby at 3am possibly did not help. So I have been beating up my lazy arse all morning.<\/p>\n

2. I have post-holiday blues<\/h2>\n

You would think being a professional traveller this affliction wouldn’t affect me\u00a0any more, \u00a0but it does, even only after a weekend away and even though I still work my dream life every day.<\/p>\n

I LOVE travelling, I LOVE making amazing memories, which I did so much of on the weekend. While my heart was so overjoyed in seeing my beautiful girls again, it feels as if a part is missing at the moment because I left so many great memory moments behind. (If you suffer from post-holiday blues, my post: Dealing with Reverse Culture Shock<\/strong><\/a> and 7 ways to overcome post-holiday blues<\/strong><\/a> may help.)<\/p>\n

3. I am overwhelmed<\/h2>\n

I have a pile that goes up to the roof of ideas, an even bigger one of pressing deadlines, both of which dwarf my pile of available time.<\/p>\n

One of my biggest problems in life is that I am a big picture person. I see the end goal, the vision and I know how great it will be, but I struggle with details. I am no good at taking the bigger picture and making it happen.<\/p>\n

I want to write the eBook, create the eproduct, finish the proposals, create the video content, start on the launch series but I am so overwhelmed and paralysed by the details that I am stuck. Where is the tin man, I need some oil?<\/p>\n

4. I am insecure<\/h2>\n

What is this a result of?<\/p>\n

Comparing myself to others.<\/p>\n

This is what I have been doing upon my return home. I’ve been reading tweets, conference wrap ups and looking at photos and all I can do with each one is see how I am not good enough. I don’t usually do this, I usually read and get inspired, but, perhaps because of the reasons mentioned above it is making me feel really small.<\/p>\n

I feel like I’m not doing enough, I can’t write good enough, I can\u2019t socialize well enough, I sound crap, my talk was horrible, I don’t have a good enough story, my fashion taste stinks, and my hair desperately needs Hair Romance<\/strong><\/a> as a personal coach!<\/p>\n

Ugh damn those comparisons and insecurity. Remember the mantra Caroline; Am I doing better than I was yesterday?<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a05. I have fear<\/h2>\n

I’m so frightened about never been able to achieve my dreams. Maybe I am actually a little frightened of what happens when I do. If I am honest, I think about that a lot. I thought about it at the end when Darren brought us out into the arena to look at the size. Each month, I have that many readers coming to y travel blog.<\/p>\n

All I could think of is, why? And What if I let them down? What if I can’t deliver? What if I fuck up? What if my voice suddenly goes?<\/p>\n

What if it\u2019s all just a delusion?<\/p>\n

The fear of the unknown is a real stupid fear. No one can ever know. Maybe all those seats will empty out, maybe I’ll have to grow into a new stadium, but what is the point in worrying about it until I know.<\/p>\n

So now I know what’s going on in my messed up little head, what do I do about it?<\/p>\n

Follow the sage advice of others:<\/p>\n

1. Keep moving forward<\/h2>\n

Even though I am feeling really shitty and uninspired, I know that I have to keep moving forward. So I’ve just been pushing through this morning and doing what I do anyway. Thinking of Darren’s 15 minute a day plan, I’ve been working through my tasks and my time spent has amounted to more than 15 mins per task. Here is what I have achieved today:<\/p>\n