I’m a believer in star signs. I really do believe the stars have an influence on our personalities, just like I believe the moon does on our moods.
Ever been in a school when it is a full moon?
Spend long enough there and you’ll soon start to see the patterns. You’ll see the teachers in the staff room pulling out their hair and asking, “Is it a full moon? The kids are just crazy today.”
Sure enough there will be heads nodding in sympathy and the answer is returned with a resounding YES!
There can’t be all that gravitational pull going on and not affecting us.
I love being a Libran. My closest friends throughout my life have all been Librans. I think its one of the rare signs where those who are it get along really well. We understand each others airy self too easily.
We understand that sometimes it does suck being a Libran.
It sucks really bad.
Librans are the scales. We love balance and harmony.
Imbalance does keep us awake at night as we think of ways we can stop the scales from teetering.
We think of solutions to solve people’s problems. We get upset when conflict happens and we are always trying to be the peacemakers. (well the majority of time)
This is a great role to have because it means we like to help and we love peace.
But it totally sucks in other ways as well.
It means we often leave ourselves wide open to be hurt and disappointed. It happens to me all the time. I see someone struggling or I come across the imbalance and my Libran self starts to get antsy thinking about how I can help. I dwell on it for a long time, my mind mulls and rolls. Eventually I come out with … “I know what I can do. I know how I can help. I know how I can restore the balance. ”
And I set to work.
And then more often to not I find my heart sinks with the realization that sometimes people are shitty. They are mean and rude, can barely utter a thanks, and often don’t give a shit about helping others or fixing their own problems.
I get so disheartened and I often give myself lectures about being so sensitive and so stupid once again to put myself out there to help and to really believe in the goodness of other people. I think if I just stick to my own little world, then I wouldn’t know what others were doing, I wouldn’t have to restore the equilibrium, I wouldn’t get disappointed and then the belief I usually hold that people are so wonderful would not be destroyed.
It takes so much effort to stop my Libran self from trying to restore that balance. It just doesn’t get the picture that most of the time people don’t want to change, they don’t want solutions, they just want to hold tight to their story. Who are they really without it?
And who am I to care either way?
That’s how I feel at the moment.
I’m ready to buy my one way ticket, sling the back pack on and head for exotic destinations where I can spend my days hugging trees and interact fleetingly with other travellers. There is no nastiness or spite, there is only friendship and gratitude and so much harmony and balance. My Libran self relishes in it.
So now my Libran self is faced with the dilemma once again of bringing back the balance. I’ll stew on it for days as I ponder how to equalize my own life. How can I focus on balancing my own little world and not worry about others?
How can I be balanced while the world around me is not, and how do I just be okay with that? And should I just be okay with that?
Any other Librans have an idea?
P.S So I tried today to not care and sent a curt reply to a shitty PR ptich and now I am left feeling shitty because I’ve created more imbalance!!