Our new little girl will be joining us in, let’s hope, four weeks time. I’m not that worried or concerned about late night feeds or surviving childbirth. I know what to expect this time and I’m sure I will come out the victor in the end, just like I did once before.
The thing that concerns m the most, actually downright terrifies me is this…
I will not be able to love my new daughter as much as Kalyra.
It is a reflection of my own limitations in being able to understand unconditional love. I understand it well when it comes to Kalyra.
But, how on earth can I possibly love two people just as much?
Is it possible? How can I find room in my love heart for two amazing little girls?
And what might this mean for Kalyra? Will she be okay with the fact that Mummy now loves someone else just as much as her? What if I can’t?
My mind just cannot fathom being able to love so deeply on multiple levels. It shows just how small and unaware we really are of our unlimited capacity for anything.
I remember when Kalyra was born, a lady who gave birth around the same time as me lovingly held her newborn son in her arms. She stroked his face, rocked him gently and smothered him with kisses, just like I was doing with Kalyra.
“This is my second child,” she told me. “You know, I just never thought I could ever love anyone like I did my first child. You just don’t believe you could. And then he was born and you realize just how much you can love. I love him just as much. It is like the first time all over again.”
She helps me to believe, that I too, will soon discover there are no limits on a mother’s love.